Okie Tober

Assalamualaikum.

Hello, hello, hello Malaysia!

Untuk yang sedia maklum , diet yang diperkatakan oleh jeng,jeng,jeng.. aku tu dah dilancarkan. Harini hari pertama cubaan aku untuk menguruskan badan. Kurus macam mana tu masih tidak pasti. Mungkin voluptious seperti Beyonce, slim and sexy seperti Megan Fox, ataupun kurus keping seperti Keira Knightley, atau pun macam papan plywood. Ataupun xde perubahan langsung, badanku akan senantiasa bulat, gemok, chubby seperti ni sampai aku beranak-pinak nanti.

*haishh* Stressful sungguh jadi seorang wanita.

Hari sabtu lepas, ada kenduri dekat rumah auntie aku dekat Taman Melawati. Tu sememangnya dah seperti rumah kedua aku la, sebab selalu sangat aku meluangkan masa disitu ye. Sepanjang tahun, setiap hari pada bulan puasa, and on weekends as well. Kenduri minggu lepas sempena aqiqah anak buah latest aku, Ariq Luqman yang dah berusia sebulan lebih. Sekarang dah makin berisi, and bertambah kacak. Biasa laa tgk laa auntie dia siapa kan ? ;p

Aku dah dapat dukung dia dah, geram teramat sangat. Aku dukung dia masa dia menangis, sampai dia tertido. Woohhh bangga habis dapat tidurkan bayi kecil ye, baru laa orang tgk ada bakat dan potensi jadi ibu terbaik suatu hari nanti. Bakal mak mertua tgk pown mesti kasi green light (kahkahkah berangan sebentar).

Ni laa dia Luq, nampak x ada benda kena tempek kat dahi dia tu ? Haa tu laa seni hasil kerja opah Luq, semestinya bonda aku. Luq hiccups pastu mak aku letak tisu basah sebesar alam. Saiz tisu yang dia letak tu boleh sembuhkan sedu anak gajah sebenarnya, tapi xpe abaikan. Gambar kat atas ni aku suka sangat sebab menggambarkan aku dalam beberapa tahun akan dtg mungkin ? HAHAHA. Aku nak make sure gambar ni disimpan, so bila Luq dah besar nak cari pasal dengan aku, aku tonyoh jea gambar ni kat muka dia " ko tgk sikit sape pegang ko elok2 dulu".

Hishh.. bahaya ada anak2 buah yang hensem hensem ni. Dah besar nanti beratur anak dara orang nk kejo deme. Aku jugak yang kena filter nanti. Kalu ada2 muka macam nak mintak penampo tu toksah nak mimpi ler.

x)

Semalam g dating, hee dengan siapa lagi, boyfriend aku la. Xkan dengan pakcik guard rumah aku pulak. Kitorang gi tgk Papadom. It's the 2nd time for me as i've seen it earlier with Aida and Cika that day. Tapi berbaloi laa tgk sebab anything that is produced or has Afdlin Shauki in it is sure a cracker. Cerita dia sweet, funny, and ironically true. It's so similar to my own life, except the 'no mother' part la. I just smiled when I first watched that movie because it reminds me so much of my own papa :) I think i should ask him to watch it.

Anyway, waaaa my sister is coming back tomorrow yayy yay. I miss her so much x sabo ni yop!!
I'll update more later. Goodnight <3

kuda kuda

Assalamualaikum fellow bloggers and blogreaders.

As you all know im having my final exam now, alhamdulillah so far all the papers i've taken have been moderately hard laa kowt. There are some I could answer, and some I know I just couldnt make sense out of it. Four weeks of semester break will be filled with lots of already-planned activities, such as exercising my butt of to shed a few KGs and away with those unwanted body fats and flabs! I think my body weight is really damaging my self-esteem so bad, because I was never this fat before, and everytime I see people they would all say the same thing, " OMG, you dah gemok". Eergh..

I am missing my sister badly :( It is always like that. Whenever she is around, time feels to fly by so quickly, as if it is doing it purposely, so that we can never really enjoy each other's presence completely. But whenever she's gone, when the lonely feeling kicks in, I just hate it.

Life is not the same it used to be. So many things have changed, and I am still learning to fit in with these changes. Though sometimes I find myself struggling to do so, I just have to stand back up again, walk through all the obstacles blocking my way, and just live my life.

This is where the All-American Rejects's "Move Along" should be playing in the background. Hehehe.. If only my life were a movie, I have all the perfect songs to represent it. :)

up date s

Currently listening to : Beautiful - Eminem

It's a really great song. A sad song really, by the great Marshall Mathers. Though most of his songs are always about insulting people, some of his songs are sad. This particular one really stole my attention from the first time I heard it.

Anyways, Assalamualaikum fellow bloggers & blogreaders. I hope everyone's doing fine, because i'm not. Life has been on it's lowest point these past few months, weeks, days, and even the last couple of hours. I've been caught so many times handling unforgiven life with tears, because that is the best thing I am strong enough to do right at this point.

I often lose control of myself, of my life, of the purpose of life, and my own dreams. Its like watching my own life seeping down the drain, or more like watching a cookie crumbles into thousands of pieces. Except in this case, my life is the unfortunate uneaten chocolate chip cookie =/

I've been so touchy and emotional, I get mad very easily over small things, I get irritated and annoyed at unnecessary times. I blame most of the things on everyone, but myself. Maybe i need proffesional help. But I don't think im that crazy. YET ;)

Yesterday there was an earthquake near Padang,Sumatra Indonesia. Dia punya affect tu sampai laa ke Malaysia. Patut laa kitorang kat dalam kelas ni, baru habis presentation, tgh duduk tiba2 Moon tegur kenapa rasa mcm bergegar jea ni. Aku tgh duduk atas kerus, diam jea, and I felt it too. Aku boleh rasa aku bergoyang in my chair. And suddenly semua orang pown rasa, and panicked. Panic bertambah bila tgk semua orang dekat kelas kelas kat Blok A keluar dari kelas, because they felt it too. But after around 2 minits or so, everything went back to normal. We then resumed class. Tapi bila balik from kelas, sampai depan hostel perempuan, tgk ramai gila dekat bawah, depan Blok G. Rupanya semua lari lintang pukang when the earthquake happened. We loittered around for almost half an hour, lepas tu semua naik ke bilik balik.

*fewhh*

What an experience. Scary though. :(

Now back to normal, I need to study for my final exam. Harap result memuaskan la, I really need to kick my pointers back up..

Wish me luck ppl.

XOXO!

Ayer Keroh

Orang yang sibuk mengucapkan "Selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin. Minta maaf dan lupakan hal lama. Kita bermula semual 0-0." Semua ni penipu dan hipokrit terbesar kat dunia. Layak ke lafazkan sesuatu yang dia sendiri x boleh nak amalkan? Dalam hal ni, ada beberapa orang yang aku tujukan, tapi bukanlah secara direct. Post kali ini sekadar nak berkongsi perasaan.

Orang orang yang aku maksudkan ni, sibuk bermaafan dengan orang lain, tapi bila aku cuba bermaafan, x dipedulikan, jadi mana pendirian dia dalam maaf yang dia sibuk lafazkan tadi tu ? Mungkin sempena raya semata mata, dia bermaafan sana sini, tapi mmg x ada niat pun untuk meminta maaf, ataupun memaafkan? Sbb tu aku kata diorang ni hipokrit. Apa jadi dengan pepatah 'buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih'? Mungkin diorang mengikut pepatah baru, 'abaikan yang keruh, buatkan lagi teruk', hahaha.. x sangka aku ada juga orang yang hati sekeras dan sebusuk ini.